MSSD Chess 2012

Had 8 rounds of brain damaged on 4th and 5th April 2012.
My chess skill is bad. Real bad this year.
At the last round, I used too much time to think.
I have less than 5 minutes and my opponent has about 15 minutes left.
At the last second... YAY! I CHECKMATED MY OPPONENT!
But guess what?
My flag dropped after I pressed the clock.
I hit the clock, to be specific.
And so I think that causes it to drop.
But I checkmated my opponent before my flag dropped.
Even Dashaarni and Peck Yin witnessed it. How can it be wrong?
They were even happy that I won.
But my opponent started complaining, saying that my flag dropped before I checkmated her.
&&& I was like nohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... NOWAY!
She doesn't even has witness to prove that she's right but I have Peck Yin and Dashaarni. How can she creates a 'story' like that?
Seriously, I wanted to fight back but I don't know why I didn't really fight back.
She called the arbiter instead of me. What's her problem?! =.=
The worst part is that the arbiter and my opponent are both Malay.
Seriously, I think THEY ARE RACIST!
FUCK THEM TO THE FUCKING CORE!
I couldn't believe the arbiter actually said that either my opponent wins or we draw.
Even Peck Yin helped me to fight back but the arbiter seems to ignore her. Sorta.
How could the arbiter tell me to choose between the two options?
HOW COULD THE ARBITER STAND AT MY OPPONENT SIDE WHEN SHE DOESN'T EVEN HAS ANY WITNESS?!
I don't get it and I can't take it.
After the match ended, I couldn't hold back my tears and I went to toilet. I cried.
I couldn't imagine how unfair things can be.
I couldn't imagine how racist Malays are.
I couldn't imagine how they settle things without justice.
WHY ARE THE LIKE THAT?!
WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT?!
Though I know life is never fair. BUT STILL!!!! :'(
Until now, I still can't accept the fact.
I still can't take it.
I don't know how many times I cried.
I used to be a strong person, which I don't think many people know.
SERIOUSLY, FUCK YOUR LIFE!
YOU STUPID ARBITER SHOULD DIE EARLIER THAN ME!
YOU'RE SUCH A RACIST ARBITER!
IF I DON'T RESPECT YOU, I WOULD HAVE STOOD UP AND DEBATE WITH YOU!
THE GAN XIN YI'S CASE IS AN EXAMPLE. (I'M NOT KIDDING YOU)
AND YOU! KISAS COLLEGE GIRL! FUCK YOUR LIFE TO THE FUCKING CORE!
I WILL NEVER FORGET AND FORGIVE YOU!
AFTER THE MATCH STILL WANNA BUY ME SOMETHING?!
OHHHH.... SO YOU ACTUALLY FEEL BAD AND GUILTY UHH?
OR IS IT THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO GIVE ME A GOOD IMPRESSION?
TOO BAD... I ALREADY KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON YOU ARE WHEN WE FIRST TALKED!
YEAH. ANOTHER ARBITER TOLD HER SHE COULD BEAT ME IN 2 MINUTES. IN YOUR FACE!
WE LASTED LONGER THAN THAT!
Though I 'died' in a second...
BUT STILL... WAN NUR ASYIHAH, YOU'RE A BITCH!
I FEEL BAD FOR YOUR MOM FOR HAVING A DAUGHTER LIKE YOU.
CREATING A LIE LIKE THAT.
YOU'RE JUST LUCKY THAT THE ARBITER TRUSTED YOU. FUCKER!
MAY YOU ROT IN HELL! DIE IN FIRE!
YES! I'M CURSING YOU, SO WHAT?!
I WISH YOU COULD EVEN READ THIS. AND YOU TOO, STUPID ARBITER!
BOTH OF YOU ARE SUCKERS! SUCK TO THE FUCKING CORE!
RACIST!
SO CALLED 1 MALAYSIA.
THE ARBITER AND MY OPPONENT TAUGHT ME TO BE RACIST.
THANK YOU.
BOTH OF YOU HAVE MOTIVATED ME TO BE A LAWYER AND NOW I'M DETERMINE TO BE ONE.
THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN. *BIG APPLAUSE* *SALUTE*
Anyway, thanks, Pn. Robiah.
Heard that you wanted to help me but you can't do anything.
&&& you think that it's unfair.
That's so nice of you. I'm glad already. :')