MSSD Chess 2012

Had 8 rounds of brain damaged on 4th and 5th April 2012.
My chess skill is bad. Real bad this year.
At the last round, I used too much time to think.
I have less than 5 minutes and my opponent has about 15 minutes left.
At the last second... YAY! I CHECKMATED MY OPPONENT!
But guess what?
My flag dropped after I pressed the clock.
I hit the clock, to be specific.
And so I think that causes it to drop.
But I checkmated my opponent before my flag dropped.
Even Dashaarni and Peck Yin witnessed it. How can it be wrong?
They were even happy that I won.
But my opponent started complaining, saying that my flag dropped before I checkmated her.
&&& I was like nohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... NOWAY!
She doesn't even has witness to prove that she's right but I have Peck Yin and Dashaarni. How can she creates a 'story' like that?
Seriously, I wanted to fight back but I don't know why I didn't really fight back.
She called the arbiter instead of me. What's her problem?! =.=
The worst part is that the arbiter and my opponent are both Malay.
Seriously, I think THEY ARE RACIST!
FUCK THEM TO THE FUCKING CORE!
I couldn't believe the arbiter actually said that either my opponent wins or we draw.
Even Peck Yin helped me to fight back but the arbiter seems to ignore her. Sorta.
How could the arbiter tell me to choose between the two options?
HOW COULD THE ARBITER STAND AT MY OPPONENT SIDE WHEN SHE DOESN'T EVEN HAS ANY WITNESS?!
I don't get it and I can't take it.
After the match ended, I couldn't hold back my tears and I went to toilet. I cried.
I couldn't imagine how unfair things can be.
I couldn't imagine how racist Malays are.
I couldn't imagine how they settle things without justice.
WHY ARE THE LIKE THAT?!
WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT?!
Though I know life is never fair. BUT STILL!!!! :'(
Until now, I still can't accept the fact.
I still can't take it.
I don't know how many times I cried.
I used to be a strong person, which I don't think many people know.
SERIOUSLY, FUCK YOUR LIFE!
YOU STUPID ARBITER SHOULD DIE EARLIER THAN ME!
YOU'RE SUCH A RACIST ARBITER!
IF I DON'T RESPECT YOU, I WOULD HAVE STOOD UP AND DEBATE WITH YOU!
THE GAN XIN YI'S CASE IS AN EXAMPLE. (I'M NOT KIDDING YOU)
AND YOU! KISAS COLLEGE GIRL! FUCK YOUR LIFE TO THE FUCKING CORE!
I WILL NEVER FORGET AND FORGIVE YOU!
AFTER THE MATCH STILL WANNA BUY ME SOMETHING?!
OHHHH.... SO YOU ACTUALLY FEEL BAD AND GUILTY UHH?
OR IS IT THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO GIVE ME A GOOD IMPRESSION?
TOO BAD... I ALREADY KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON YOU ARE WHEN WE FIRST TALKED!
YEAH. ANOTHER ARBITER TOLD HER SHE COULD BEAT ME IN 2 MINUTES. IN YOUR FACE!
WE LASTED LONGER THAN THAT!
Though I 'died' in a second...
BUT STILL... WAN NUR ASYIHAH, YOU'RE A BITCH!
I FEEL BAD FOR YOUR MOM FOR HAVING A DAUGHTER LIKE YOU.
CREATING A LIE LIKE THAT.
YOU'RE JUST LUCKY THAT THE ARBITER TRUSTED YOU. FUCKER!
MAY YOU ROT IN HELL! DIE IN FIRE!
YES! I'M CURSING YOU, SO WHAT?!
I WISH YOU COULD EVEN READ THIS. AND YOU TOO, STUPID ARBITER!
BOTH OF YOU ARE SUCKERS! SUCK TO THE FUCKING CORE!
RACIST!
SO CALLED 1 MALAYSIA.
THE ARBITER AND MY OPPONENT TAUGHT ME TO BE RACIST.
THANK YOU.
BOTH OF YOU HAVE MOTIVATED ME TO BE A LAWYER AND NOW I'M DETERMINE TO BE ONE.
THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN. *BIG APPLAUSE* *SALUTE*
Anyway, thanks, Pn. Robiah.
Heard that you wanted to help me but you can't do anything.
&&& you think that it's unfair.
That's so nice of you. I'm glad already. :')

27th December 2011

Today is the worst day ever in my 16 years of life.
I got no idea what is wrong with my mom.
This morning, she came into my room, confiscated my phone and yelling at me.
What the fuck is wrong with her man?!
SPM isn't here yet. She doesn't has to do that this early. =.=
Since I got no idea what is wrong with her, I ignored and didn't even talk to her the whole day.
So what if she talk to me?
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!
So what if she confiscated my phone?
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!
So what if she got angry?
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!
I didn't fight back because I respect her.
If I don't respect you, I think I would have even kill you. =.=
The anger in me is no your anger.
4 years of humiliation.
People laughed at me like nobody's business.
4 years. 4 freaking years.
FUCK MY LIFE SERIOUSLY!

The day before Centro Klang Run.

Oh noooooooooooooooooo!
Tomorrow is the day!
CENTRO KLANG RUN!
It's 11.30p.m. now and I'm still not sleeping.
Guess I'm too nervous or something.
Meowwwwwwwwwwwwwww....
How how how?
Gotta wake up at 5a.m. tomorrow.
I'm afraid I'll oversleep.
Meowwwwwwwwwwwwwww....
How how how?
*sigh*
I don't care. I'm there just too accompany Veronica Guay Hsu Ling.
Nothing much.
See... What a good friend am I.
HAHA!

Hmmm.... Orange and white t-shirt.
I dislike the colour.
I HATE ORANGE! YES!
But I still have to wear it tomorrow.
Nevermind. Only for a day. =)
G210. That's my number tag!
Anyway, wish me luck!
6km in an hour time!
My target!
Adios~ =D

Ms. Tan, our beloved teacher advisor of prefectorial board

Ms. Tan is leaving on 9th of September.
Yes. It's a very shocking news to us all prefects.
When she told us about her leaving during the meeting, I almost burst into tears.
Of course I didn't.
I tried my very best to hold back my tears.
Although I'm with her for only 1 year and 6 months, but we work together all the time.
Now that I'm so close to her and she's leaving the board, the school.
For her own good, we just gotta let her go.
She had resigned herself as a teacher from the government educational bla bla and she will be teaching in an international school.
She told us that she doesn't want to leave us and being with us is fun.
But we have only 2 months with her now and then farewell.
We'll miss you, Ms. Tan.
Don't you forget us.
Don't worry. We will never forget you. =(
OMG! Okay. My eyes are teary now. Skip skip!

Hmm...
Who's gonna take over Ms. Tan?
Pn. Shri or that fat ass bitch, Pn. Juliet or or or maybe that stylo but scary Pn. Kang?
OMG! PLEASE! NOT ANY OF THEM! GOD! I BEG YOU!
They don't have a good leadership like Ms. Tan do.
They will threaten us.
They will make us their slaves.
They will give us lots and lots of pressure.
OH GOD! PLEASE! NO!
I don't want them to lead the prefectorial board.
Well, I believe... All the other prefects will never agree too.
Even if they were chosen, we will write a letter to the headmistress.
I'LL BE THE FIRST ONE TO DO THAT!

1 Murid 1 Sukan 1 Malaysia

1.5km run today. Supposingly.
Too bad too sad. =(
I WANNA KILL THE TEACHER WHO SAID WE CAN START RUNNING ALREADY.
JUST BECAUSE OF HER. I HAVE TO RUN 3KM!
FTW WEYYH!
YES! THANKS TO HER!
I WAS LIKE RUNNING NONSTOP AND UNTIL I REACHED SCHOOL, I SAW LOTS OF PEOPLE IS GETTING READY TO RUN.
THE MOMENT I HEARD A TEACHER SAID HAVEN'T START YET, I WAS LIKE WTF?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?! THEN I HAVE TO RUN AGAIN?! DO YOU WANNA TRY TO RUN NONSTOP?!
IT'S UNFAIR! HUMPH! ><
But what to do?
Over is over. Past is past.
Don't cry over the split milk. =(
But... I'M NOT SATISFIED!
I GOT NO STRENGTH TO RUN ANYMORE AFTER THAT.
NOT FAIR NOT FAIR NOT FAIR! ><
Aigoo... Once again, what to do?
Past is past. Over is over.
Don't cry over the split milk.
Anyway, it's just a stupid 1.5km run.
Ohh! Nononono! It's 3km run. =.=

What a day.
Caught a Form 3 prefect brought her phone to school today.
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?!
DO YOU KNOW WE CHOSE YOU AS THE PEYELARAS REKOD DISIPLIN?!
Seriously, you let us down.
Same goes to her friend.
She knows her friend brought her phone but she lied to Joanne and I that her friend actually brought her iPod.
How pathetic of them. *sigh*
Then, Joanne and I reported to Miss Tan, our teacher advisor and of course THEY ARE WANTED.
But I don't know what happened next because Joanne and I left the Bilik Disiplin already. LOL.
Okay. This is weird and lame.
Alright. Whatever. =P

Stupid Reports!

Aigoo...
MI coordinator ahh... Is it you?
*sigh*
Why Miss Tan wanna pick me to do the reports?
There are 11 reports, you know?
I. CAN. DIE.
But thank God. I managed to finish up 7 reports.
4 more to go tomorrow. Yes! XD
Although I hate doing it, but it was fun faking reports.
LOL. Seriously.
I can write anything I want. LOLOLOLOL!
And and and the teacher doesn't even care about it.
That's the best part, I guess. XD
Hmmm... Right. Leaving now.
See ya! Stay tuned! XD

A boring Friday night. 10th June 2011.

Nothing better to do tonight.
This...is what I did.